medical school

Yes, the analogies of the trying to drink from a fire hydrant are pretty accurate of medical school, but like everyone says, "you really don't know what medical school is like until you actually go through it"...in a way, medical school has somewhat isolated me, just from the fact that you can't relate in a lot of ways to others except your fellow class mates. I'm sure studying the majority of your life in the first two years has a huge part in it too, but still..

Anyways, as I go on through medical school studying about the complexities of the eye and the brain (we're studying those two areas, which are both complex and interesting), I find myself contemplating a lot on what I want to accomplish in life and what happiness truly is (which in a way is alot more complex!). It's true, I have found myself happiest when life is really simple, and you're out there just helping others. Really, life was awesome in the Amazon jungle, because it was just so simple. However, that's not reality, is it?

I constantly try to find ways to motivate myself, and I tell myself that "it's ok, in the end it'll all be worth it." But will it? I mean, all this studying to be a doctor, will it be worth it? My answer is no, if the goal is to just become some great, accomplished doctor. I guess the only way it will be worth it is not in just becoming the best doctor you can be, but using those skills to make a great impact to those around you. It's true, you get great satisfaction from doing something that you're great at while making others around you happy or feel better. I guess in that sense, a doctor can have a lot of influence. Whatever people may say, doctors do have a great impact on others, and are highly influential to those he/she takes care of, but to the community as well. In a way, it's awesome that I'm studying all this so that when somebody's sick and nobody knows what to do, I will have that knowledge to help that particular sick person feel better.

I guess I just gotta focus on the big picture, and realize this studying will be worth it, not for my own benefit or to have some great title as being a doctor, but for what I will be able to accomplish in others.

the rose that grew from concrete

Did you hear about the rose that grew from a crack in the concrete?
Proving nature's law is wrong it learned to walk with out having feet.
Funny it seems, but by keeping it's dreams, it learned to breathe fresh air.
Long live the rose that grew from concrete when no one else ever cared.